I'm tired

of so many things.
I'm tired of smiling when all I wanna do is curl up in bed and go back to sleep.
I'm tired of people telling me I'm always wrong.
I'm tired of looking in the mirror and despising everything I see.
I'm tired of being the "normal one" when I'm fighting back horrible inner demons everyday.
I'm tired of people yelling at me when I haven't even done something wrong.
I'm tired of people not understanding.
I'm tired of not being able to explain without fear of hurting myself.
I'm tired of people hurting me.
I'm tired of being the one people go to complain to but I can't complain because everyone else will find out.
I'm tired of being yelled at because I got mad because you told everyone.
I'm just sick and tired of my life.

I hate admitting it...

But I'm all cut up.
I did this toward the beginning of the week.
My stomach, chest area, either leg, and right arm all say something.
Yeah, I'm pretty much cut up.
Why?
A friend of mine wanted to be friends with the kid who mentally abused me for nearly six months, told me the world was better without me, and told me to kill myself twice.
Most people have forgiven him, but we were supposedly friends.
Last time I checked, you don't tell your friends something like that.
So, even though I'm trying to be happy and fine, I'm all cut up.

Obviously,

if everything's fine for someone else, that whore has to cause trouble. But this time, I'm not taking it, dear. Your number's gone, your text messages are gone. We've been close, it's been Hell, and I'm done. When you've decided you're ready to grow up, I'll be ready to forgive you.
I've got a great relationship and if you dare try to be a whore and mess it, I won't try to ruin yours, I'll be nice enough to not do anything other than ask him to please not hang out with you because you're being a whore over me being happy.
Oh and you're the one who flipped out anytime anyone cussed. I just don't. But now I've basically got you pinned down. You're a lying, cussing, drama-causing little ho. So, hehe, thanks for tap-dancing out of my life because either I wanted one or something was going wrong not EVEN partaining to me.

Love Hand holding

And finally have someone who's willing to do it.

Blackmail.

What? My grandma getting her a ring? We were at a jewerlry party and Julia was there and wanted it so since my grandma is nice she got it for Julia.8:16amcool.8:16amYep..8:18amlol.8:18amWhat?.8:19amyou and joeh.8:20amYeah...I'm just cool like that..8:23amMe to :D.8:25amYeah but I'm cooler. Because this crap used to hurt me..8:25amWhat, the cuttering joeh says you doing.8:26amCuttering?.8:26amOH, SHE not cutter.9:01pmIs that what she tells you. Really because lat I knew. Her words. " I can do amazing things with a razor blade." Yes she is definatly not a cutter.
Now buzz off.
I haven't the patience nor the mood..8:28amI love how that's the quote he uses. .8:28amOf course.8:30amWhy not the one were I actually told him? I'm a honest little girl so I cannot really deny this..8:31amlolol.8:31amWhat?.8:32amyou make meh chuckle.8:33amWhy? Or... I think how is the better question..8:34amvery carefully.8:35amWhat?!.8:35amthe zombies in mah basement like thiWhy not the one were I actually told him? I'm a honest little girl so I cannot really deny this.s .8:37amWhat about it?.8:37ammy twisted-ness gets a lol from it.8:38amStupid rich kids....8:39ammwahahahah.8:40amYou know what? I bet your, like, allowance could buy people. XD.8:40ami dont like buying, i rent and use then stop paying.8:41amProstitutes???
Lol.8:41amonly on weekends.8:43amI'm disturbed. But I guess that answer my questions about whether or not you leave the house on the weekends..8:43amhehehe, I dont leave.....8:44amThey come to you..8:44amyep
like whores to money+dude parts.8:45amI'm REALLY disturbed now..8:45amlol.8:47amNo, like, I could've gone my whole life without putting you and prostitution in the same thought..8:47amLots you dont know....8:47amI'm starting to not want to..8:48amheh.8:49amGosh!.8:49amgosh??
sexualfantiseiswhatthebuck.8:52amI'm a practicing Christian..8:52amgood.8:52amAnd we got Joey in trouble..8:52amhow.8:53amI tol Julia.
told, not tol..8:53amwhat u tell.8:54amThat he was being a butt..8:54amoh, about what??.8:56am...My mom's scaring me..8:56amhow, why.8:56amShe was hovering over my shoulder..8:56amok
Oh I'm shaking in my boots. Hahaha. Julia also said Lexi wanted to show her all the mean comments I said to her. Julia didn't care.
JOEH.9:00amNo, I told Julia "Joey told herbie i cut when he asked me it he said cuttering" and now I tink we got him in troublessss...Because she didn't realize what a...jerk...he is. I didn't know he wore boots. Are they, like, thigh high?!.9:01amno, crotch high.9:02amAnd you would know?.9:02amyoutube vidoes of drunk goths are funny.9:03amThat does not answer my question..9:04amyes it does, think about who the drunk goth might be.9:05amJoey's not a true goth. True goths are elegant and he's an arrogant poop head. Yea, I went there..9:07amlol
LEXI.9:08amWHAT.9:08amis my lego/read/bedtime.9:08amWhat?.9:08amGood night..9:09amNight.
Night.