Saturday, October 30, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Blackmail.
What? My grandma getting her a ring? We were at a jewerlry party and Julia was there and wanted it so since my grandma is nice she got it for Julia.8:16amcool.8:16amYep..8:18amlol.8:18amWhat?.8:19amyou and joeh.8:20amYeah...I'm just cool like that..8:23amMe to :D.8:25amYeah but I'm cooler. Because this crap used to hurt me..8:25amWhat, the cuttering joeh says you doing.8:26amCuttering?.8:26amOH, SHE not cutter.9:01pmIs that what she tells you. Really because lat I knew. Her words. " I can do amazing things with a razor blade." Yes she is definatly not a cutter.
Now buzz off.
I haven't the patience nor the mood..8:28amI love how that's the quote he uses. .8:28amOf course.8:30amWhy not the one were I actually told him? I'm a honest little girl so I cannot really deny this..8:31amlolol.8:31amWhat?.8:32amyou make meh chuckle.8:33amWhy? Or... I think how is the better question..8:34amvery carefully.8:35amWhat?!.8:35amthe zombies in mah basement like thiWhy not the one were I actually told him? I'm a honest little girl so I cannot really deny this.s .8:37amWhat about it?.8:37ammy twisted-ness gets a lol from it.8:38amStupid rich kids....8:39ammwahahahah.8:40amYou know what? I bet your, like, allowance could buy people. XD.8:40ami dont like buying, i rent and use then stop paying.8:41amProstitutes???
Lol.8:41amonly on weekends.8:43amI'm disturbed. But I guess that answer my questions about whether or not you leave the house on the weekends..8:43amhehehe, I dont leave.....8:44amThey come to you..8:44amyep
like whores to money+dude parts.8:45amI'm REALLY disturbed now..8:45amlol.8:47amNo, like, I could've gone my whole life without putting you and prostitution in the same thought..8:47amLots you dont know....8:47amI'm starting to not want to..8:48amheh.8:49amGosh!.8:49amgosh??
sexualfantiseiswhatthebuck.8:52amI'm a practicing Christian..8:52amgood.8:52amAnd we got Joey in trouble..8:52amhow.8:53amI tol Julia.
told, not tol..8:53amwhat u tell.8:54amThat he was being a butt..8:54amoh, about what??.8:56am...My mom's scaring me..8:56amhow, why.8:56amShe was hovering over my shoulder..8:56amok
Oh I'm shaking in my boots. Hahaha. Julia also said Lexi wanted to show her all the mean comments I said to her. Julia didn't care.
JOEH.9:00amNo, I told Julia "Joey told herbie i cut when he asked me it he said cuttering" and now I tink we got him in troublessss...Because she didn't realize what a...jerk...he is. I didn't know he wore boots. Are they, like, thigh high?!.9:01amno, crotch high.9:02amAnd you would know?.9:02amyoutube vidoes of drunk goths are funny.9:03amThat does not answer my question..9:04amyes it does, think about who the drunk goth might be.9:05amJoey's not a true goth. True goths are elegant and he's an arrogant poop head. Yea, I went there..9:07amlol
LEXI.9:08amWHAT.9:08amis my lego/read/bedtime.9:08amWhat?.9:08amGood night..9:09amNight.
Night.
Now buzz off.
I haven't the patience nor the mood..8:28amI love how that's the quote he uses. .8:28amOf course.8:30amWhy not the one were I actually told him? I'm a honest little girl so I cannot really deny this..8:31amlolol.8:31amWhat?.8:32amyou make meh chuckle.8:33amWhy? Or... I think how is the better question..8:34amvery carefully.8:35amWhat?!.8:35amthe zombies in mah basement like thiWhy not the one were I actually told him? I'm a honest little girl so I cannot really deny this.s .8:37amWhat about it?.8:37ammy twisted-ness gets a lol from it.8:38amStupid rich kids....8:39ammwahahahah.8:40amYou know what? I bet your, like, allowance could buy people. XD.8:40ami dont like buying, i rent and use then stop paying.8:41amProstitutes???
Lol.8:41amonly on weekends.8:43amI'm disturbed. But I guess that answer my questions about whether or not you leave the house on the weekends..8:43amhehehe, I dont leave.....8:44amThey come to you..8:44amyep
like whores to money+dude parts.8:45amI'm REALLY disturbed now..8:45amlol.8:47amNo, like, I could've gone my whole life without putting you and prostitution in the same thought..8:47amLots you dont know....8:47amI'm starting to not want to..8:48amheh.8:49amGosh!.8:49amgosh??
sexualfantiseiswhatthebuck.8:52amI'm a practicing Christian..8:52amgood.8:52amAnd we got Joey in trouble..8:52amhow.8:53amI tol Julia.
told, not tol..8:53amwhat u tell.8:54amThat he was being a butt..8:54amoh, about what??.8:56am...My mom's scaring me..8:56amhow, why.8:56amShe was hovering over my shoulder..8:56amok
Oh I'm shaking in my boots. Hahaha. Julia also said Lexi wanted to show her all the mean comments I said to her. Julia didn't care.
JOEH.9:00amNo, I told Julia "Joey told herbie i cut when he asked me it he said cuttering" and now I tink we got him in troublessss...Because she didn't realize what a...jerk...he is. I didn't know he wore boots. Are they, like, thigh high?!.9:01amno, crotch high.9:02amAnd you would know?.9:02amyoutube vidoes of drunk goths are funny.9:03amThat does not answer my question..9:04amyes it does, think about who the drunk goth might be.9:05amJoey's not a true goth. True goths are elegant and he's an arrogant poop head. Yea, I went there..9:07amlol
LEXI.9:08amWHAT.9:08amis my lego/read/bedtime.9:08amWhat?.9:08amGood night..9:09amNight.
Night.
I wish...
Gosh, there are so many things I wish right now. One, I wish I could love her, but the pain that she's caused is just...too great and I can barely love myself. It's so easy when things are going good. When she's explaining everything and letting me know when something is bothering her... because then I feel more open, more ready to tell her things I shouldn't.
I wish I could quit cutting. It's hurting me and my family... but there's no real reason to stop. No one wants me to anymore.
Three, I wish...gosh, this gonna sound bad, that she would break up with him. She was easier to talk to before they started dating.
Four, I really wish I could be forgiven by her. I don't know when to shut my mouth and all of this hurts...a lot.
So, sorry. I just...want to feel like you like me and you dating him even after all he's done to me, is like saying you don't care at all. I'm sorry I apparently treat you bad.
I wish I could quit cutting. It's hurting me and my family... but there's no real reason to stop. No one wants me to anymore.
Three, I wish...gosh, this gonna sound bad, that she would break up with him. She was easier to talk to before they started dating.
Four, I really wish I could be forgiven by her. I don't know when to shut my mouth and all of this hurts...a lot.
So, sorry. I just...want to feel like you like me and you dating him even after all he's done to me, is like saying you don't care at all. I'm sorry I apparently treat you bad.
Monday, October 4, 2010
I've been thinking...
A new school may be just what I need. If they don't like me, then I won't have friend drama. If they do, well, I'll never let them close enough to hurt me. No, I've learned my lessons.
Another party with the same kids,
another night with the same drinks
I need to find myself a new chick
Maybe that's what I need, a change in scenery. Maybe I could actually try to trust someone again? Hah, doubt it. Six or seven years later and I find out I can't even trust the one I thought was my best friend. How could I trust a stranger I only have four years to get to know? And how could they trust me?
I guess I don't have to worry about it. I guess I have an appointment with someone who is gonna pretend to care about my problems so they'll get some money. Maybe I'll even tell them? Anyway, I have it on the twelfth unless Mom gets to it change it changed to a date that isn't right before my varitity show audition.
Pretty sure she sides with him...again. Can't even tell me one thing she doesn't agree with.
Woo, she's freaking sick of my bull crap and doesn't have the balls to tell me herself. And frickin crap, I haven't gotten the shell to protect me yet so it hurts. Carves me frickin up. I thought we were getting along.
Need more reason for me to like your boyfriend Echo? Or even you?
Joseph Rudis Lexi you are obsessive, psycho, and dangerous. And I will be sure to say that to your face as soon as you return to school. =) Though obviously you are too scared to face anyone at school considering you want to skip the entire school week.
8 minutes ago · LikeUnlike.Lexi Dixon Who said I want to skip the whole week?
6 minutes ago · LikeUnlike.Joseph Rudis Who do you think?
5 minutes ago · LikeUnlike.Lexi Dixon No clue.
But then again, I'm also still pretending I can mildly trust that backstabber. =/
Joseph Rudis My Informer was of course Julia. =)
9 minutes ago · LikeUnlike
There you go, more reason to trust you Julia!
Another party with the same kids,
another night with the same drinks
I need to find myself a new chick
Maybe that's what I need, a change in scenery. Maybe I could actually try to trust someone again? Hah, doubt it. Six or seven years later and I find out I can't even trust the one I thought was my best friend. How could I trust a stranger I only have four years to get to know? And how could they trust me?
I guess I don't have to worry about it. I guess I have an appointment with someone who is gonna pretend to care about my problems so they'll get some money. Maybe I'll even tell them? Anyway, I have it on the twelfth unless Mom gets to it change it changed to a date that isn't right before my varitity show audition.
Pretty sure she sides with him...again. Can't even tell me one thing she doesn't agree with.
Woo, she's freaking sick of my bull crap and doesn't have the balls to tell me herself. And frickin crap, I haven't gotten the shell to protect me yet so it hurts. Carves me frickin up. I thought we were getting along.
Need more reason for me to like your boyfriend Echo? Or even you?
Joseph Rudis Lexi you are obsessive, psycho, and dangerous. And I will be sure to say that to your face as soon as you return to school. =) Though obviously you are too scared to face anyone at school considering you want to skip the entire school week.
8 minutes ago · LikeUnlike.Lexi Dixon Who said I want to skip the whole week?
6 minutes ago · LikeUnlike.Joseph Rudis Who do you think?
5 minutes ago · LikeUnlike.Lexi Dixon No clue.
But then again, I'm also still pretending I can mildly trust that backstabber. =/
Joseph Rudis My Informer was of course Julia. =)
9 minutes ago · LikeUnlike
There you go, more reason to trust you Julia!
Haha, it's so funny how you change
May 7.2010
10:23 PM
Julia:
Okay. No one said you had to hang out with him
And now she's trying her hardest to make me hang out with him! Well, dear, give me a year or two of him not treating me like dirt and MAYBE I'll be able to do it.
Unless, of course, this is all PERFECTLY nice and polite and should possibly hurt me
10:53 PM
Joey:
You know what Lexi drop dead. Go kill yourself I don't care. You would be doing the world a huge favor. This whole time I have felt horrible about myself. And you don't give a shit. I could die tonight and you wouldn't care.
10:28 PM
Joey:
You know what Lexi. Just go leave me alone. Jump down a well, drown in your own vomit, slit your own throat I really don't care anymore.
I was trying to be nice about this but know I really have lost patience.
10:34 PM
Joey:
You are a little witch who hates to admit that she has acted wrong and this whole time you have been hiding behind Julia instead of coming strait to me with anger.
You are a coward and a ignorant fool.
10:58 PM
Joey:
Yes because you have given me no reason to care. You have always been rude and unkind to me. And I am sick of it and so is Julia. She also said you are jealous because she talks to me more than you.
11:05 PM
Joey:
See. You are self-centered. Declaring yourself above others. Their is no different. You are arrogant. This is full proof of that. You are a self- abosorbed bitch. You said in 6th grade that you hated people who acted like they are better than people. What are you doing now you pathedic hypocrite.
Joseph Rudis October 1 at 9:24am Report
I am really quite sick of your disturbing obsession with Julia. I know everything you say to her. I know that you are angry at her because she will not get rid of me. So you are trying to turn her against me. Is this some sort of game to you? What is your problem. Julia tells me that if she hugs anyone else before she hugs you especially when it comes to me you get really pissed at her.Why? What the hell is wrong with her hugging other people before she hugs you? I am in a relationship with her and that doesn't even bother me the least bit. And I saw the way you looked at me when I went and stood next to Julia and you said " I have to go to tutoring" and rudely walked away. And Julia now tells me that it "physically hurts" you that I am with her. Why? If you are cutting yourself then the only one to blame is you. I did nothing to you I merely stripped away your collapsing illusion. You were afraid. You were afraid that I or anyone else would see through your false appearense and see what you truely are. A sad, psychoctic, obsessive, dangerous girl. And you are afraid someone like me will "steal" Julia away. So the way I see it is you are either a lesbian or you have completely lost your mind. You are an anchor and will drag Julia down. You spread your negativity to others. And why? Because you want someone to either suffer the same fate as you or someone to try and guilt trip. You deserve no sympathy. You are a dangerous human being and your worst enemy is yourself. You need some serious mental help my dear =) .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 5:53am Report
No acutally I don't really expect you to come around. Actually I told Julia that if you were bothering her enough that shes hould just leave you behind completely. I wouldn't have actually told her that if it weren't for the fact that she told me that you want her to get rid of me. That and your lesbian-like obsession over her is really scaring her. And "annoying". I fail to see how. The only time I ever even say anything to you is if you are starting your stupid drama. And that is when I confront you. And rightfully so. So I guess anyone that you piss off through out your life must be annoying because they may confront you. I only accuse when I know the facts or if I was mislead. And Julia has told me all I needed to know about all the ignorant drama you start every day of every week. And quite frankly I don't care how my actions may bother you or anyone else. I do not live to please you nor any other person I do not care for. And Ignorant? I call it out. Apparently I smart enough to dig out the truth from your pathedic false image. You are just as ignorant as I. And You are quite insane. If you are in love with Julia just admit it already. And what bugs me about you...you act as if everything is fine and then randomly some week you start this whole drama thing all over again. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:46am Report
And she never will. As long as you keep up your phsyco behavior she will always cast you out. She may even try and sort things out with you now. But you always take the wrong approach and yell at her. And don't say you don't because she just told me you called her freaking out. If you are going to be a bitch to her just leave her the hell alone. And what would you need to run away from? We are talking about going over and talking to people not petting a lion. .
(only, it IS like trying to pet a lion, after all this.)
There you go, now go on pretending I should be happy. Keep pretending he's a good person. I deserve all of this...it seems.
10:23 PM
Julia:
Okay. No one said you had to hang out with him
And now she's trying her hardest to make me hang out with him! Well, dear, give me a year or two of him not treating me like dirt and MAYBE I'll be able to do it.
Unless, of course, this is all PERFECTLY nice and polite and should possibly hurt me
10:53 PM
Joey:
You know what Lexi drop dead. Go kill yourself I don't care. You would be doing the world a huge favor. This whole time I have felt horrible about myself. And you don't give a shit. I could die tonight and you wouldn't care.
10:28 PM
Joey:
You know what Lexi. Just go leave me alone. Jump down a well, drown in your own vomit, slit your own throat I really don't care anymore.
I was trying to be nice about this but know I really have lost patience.
10:34 PM
Joey:
You are a little witch who hates to admit that she has acted wrong and this whole time you have been hiding behind Julia instead of coming strait to me with anger.
You are a coward and a ignorant fool.
10:58 PM
Joey:
Yes because you have given me no reason to care. You have always been rude and unkind to me. And I am sick of it and so is Julia. She also said you are jealous because she talks to me more than you.
11:05 PM
Joey:
See. You are self-centered. Declaring yourself above others. Their is no different. You are arrogant. This is full proof of that. You are a self- abosorbed bitch. You said in 6th grade that you hated people who acted like they are better than people. What are you doing now you pathedic hypocrite.
Joseph Rudis October 1 at 9:24am Report
I am really quite sick of your disturbing obsession with Julia. I know everything you say to her. I know that you are angry at her because she will not get rid of me. So you are trying to turn her against me. Is this some sort of game to you? What is your problem. Julia tells me that if she hugs anyone else before she hugs you especially when it comes to me you get really pissed at her.Why? What the hell is wrong with her hugging other people before she hugs you? I am in a relationship with her and that doesn't even bother me the least bit. And I saw the way you looked at me when I went and stood next to Julia and you said " I have to go to tutoring" and rudely walked away. And Julia now tells me that it "physically hurts" you that I am with her. Why? If you are cutting yourself then the only one to blame is you. I did nothing to you I merely stripped away your collapsing illusion. You were afraid. You were afraid that I or anyone else would see through your false appearense and see what you truely are. A sad, psychoctic, obsessive, dangerous girl. And you are afraid someone like me will "steal" Julia away. So the way I see it is you are either a lesbian or you have completely lost your mind. You are an anchor and will drag Julia down. You spread your negativity to others. And why? Because you want someone to either suffer the same fate as you or someone to try and guilt trip. You deserve no sympathy. You are a dangerous human being and your worst enemy is yourself. You need some serious mental help my dear =) .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 5:53am Report
No acutally I don't really expect you to come around. Actually I told Julia that if you were bothering her enough that shes hould just leave you behind completely. I wouldn't have actually told her that if it weren't for the fact that she told me that you want her to get rid of me. That and your lesbian-like obsession over her is really scaring her. And "annoying". I fail to see how. The only time I ever even say anything to you is if you are starting your stupid drama. And that is when I confront you. And rightfully so. So I guess anyone that you piss off through out your life must be annoying because they may confront you. I only accuse when I know the facts or if I was mislead. And Julia has told me all I needed to know about all the ignorant drama you start every day of every week. And quite frankly I don't care how my actions may bother you or anyone else. I do not live to please you nor any other person I do not care for. And Ignorant? I call it out. Apparently I smart enough to dig out the truth from your pathedic false image. You are just as ignorant as I. And You are quite insane. If you are in love with Julia just admit it already. And what bugs me about you...you act as if everything is fine and then randomly some week you start this whole drama thing all over again. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:46am Report
And she never will. As long as you keep up your phsyco behavior she will always cast you out. She may even try and sort things out with you now. But you always take the wrong approach and yell at her. And don't say you don't because she just told me you called her freaking out. If you are going to be a bitch to her just leave her the hell alone. And what would you need to run away from? We are talking about going over and talking to people not petting a lion. .
(only, it IS like trying to pet a lion, after all this.)
There you go, now go on pretending I should be happy. Keep pretending he's a good person. I deserve all of this...it seems.
Ok, so maybe I take my anger out on her.
5/7/2010
9:34 PM
Lexi:
I've decided I'm not hanging out with you guys when Joey's around. Mainly because he obviously doesn't like the fact that I have a backbone and I'm sick of his abuse when he has no right to TOUCH me.
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9:35 PM
Julia:
Okay?
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9:37 PM
Lexi:
I'm not quite sure what you said after I left, but the whole "Cant we just drop it" thing shows that you're passive when he seems mad. Sorry if I seem ticked off about being called rude, a jerk, a "mindless worm", and arrogant.
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9:38 PM
Julia:
I stood up for you and you won't even talk to me. How does that seem fair?
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9:39 PM
Lexi:
You BAREly stood up for me.
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9:39 PM
Julia:
I still tried! I could have just blown it off altogether!!!
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9:39 PM
Lexi:
Why not!? He's obviously more important.
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9:40 PM
Julia:
That isn't true. Why would you even think that?
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9:41 PM
Lexi:
The way you talk about him. Geesh, just ask him out already, you talk about him enough
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9:41 PM
Julia:
If I honestly felt that way about him I might.
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9:42 PM
Lexi:
Then quit acting like he's oh so amazing.
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9:42 PM
Julia:
I don't try to. Sorry for thinking he has a heart and actually cares.
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9:44 PM
Lexi:
Sorry for thinking you should at least be a little upset that he disses someone who's supposily to be your best friend. Oh wait, I guess that would be him meaning there is no problem.
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9:44 PM
Julia:
What are you talking about?! I am mad about it. Sorry for not going on a complete rampage like you
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9:46 PM
Lexi:
Obviously you aren't mad. Whatever, just go back to tellin him youre deep secrets cause you feel "comfortable" with him.
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9:46 PM
Julia:
I do. You tend to get mad or judge me.
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9:48 PM
Lexi:
Then go back to talking to him. When you get down to it, he IS your best friend. Go to him and rant about just how jugdemental and all I am. I'm sure HE agrees with you.
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9:49 PM
Julia:
Whatever, Lexi. If that's what you want to believe. I thought our friendship was stronger than one guy but obviously it isn't.
Joey: Then please tell her this. If she has any problems, questions, comments, or concerns to adress them to me personally.
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9:52 PM
Lexi:
You basically blew off him calling me various things, you trust him more than me AND make it obvious, and apparently both of you think I'm so freakin jugdmental. HE can go SCREW himself. I don't have to do anything that kid says.
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9:53 PM
Julia:
"basically blew it off"!!!! I stood up for you which is better thaan you've EVER done for me.
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9:54 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, sure, whatever you say. Miss Julia and Master Joey are always right. Do not question.
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9:55 PM
Julia:
No one ever said that. You came up with that one on your own.
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9:55 PM
Lexi:
No one has to say it. Your ACTIONS say it. I'm always wrong, you two are ALWAYS right.
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9:56 PM
Julia:
No. Over half the time you are right however, you saying that i didn't stick up for you ticks me off
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9:57 PM
Lexi:
Oh? Would you like to send me where you did stick up for me? Cause what I saw, you were trying, but you were also trying to keep from making anyone mad.
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9:58 PM
Julia:
Yea well I don't honestly like confrontations I get enough of that at home.
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9:59 PM
Lexi:
And you proved my point. You didn't stick up for me. Joey's friendship is more important.
No, wait, not his friendship. Him thinking you're on his side is
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9:59 PM
Julia:
This is stupid. You're acting like you're 2.
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10:01 PM
Lexi:
And I bet you're telling him all this. Yeah, I'm acting like I'm two. What next? I'm a mindless slug who just wants attention?
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10:01 PM
Julia:
No. And I'm not telling him anything about our "conversation" if you can even call it that.
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10:03 PM
Lexi:
Aw, but it would so be you. You can trust him with EVERYTHING. Be sure to tell him that I just wanna walk up to him, slap him, and say "Rude enough for you, MUTT?"
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10:03 PM
Julia:
Whatever.
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10:05 PM
Lexi:
Oh wait, I'm dissing your super cool BFFF who thinks he's better than everyone. 'Specially a mindless worm like me who's smarter than he is.
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10:05 PM
Julia:
I don't need this.
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10:06 PM
Lexi:
Then maybe you should've actually tried standing up for you "friend"
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10:07 PM
Julia:
I did try. Obviously not well enouh for you to accept it.
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10:07 PM
Lexi:
You PASSIVELY tried. Which doesn't work.
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10:07 PM
Julia:
I can't...
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10:08 PM
Lexi:
Well then sorry I thought you cared enough to try.
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10:09 PM
Julia:
I did try. You didn't care because it wasn't what you considered edequate so i don't even want to hear it
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10:10 PM
Lexi:
Shut up and go back to you boyfriend to whine. I didn't care after the whole "Can we drop it?" You try to drop it when you care more about the person doing it.
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10:11 PM
Julia:
No. I drop it when there's no winning. Like with you.
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10:12 PM
Lexi:
Like I said, go back to your boyfriend and whine
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10:13 PM
Julia:
whatever.
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10:15 PM
Lexi:
I mean, when he's important enough to just blow it all off...
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10:16 PM
Julia:
I wasn't blowing it off....
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10:16 PM
Lexi:
You were.
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10:16 PM
Julia:
Wasn't.
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10:18 PM
Lexi:
Oh really? "She was trying to act ganster" How is that not trying to blow it off? It's like you trying to justify it or treat me like a totally retard.
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10:18 PM
Julia:
No, I was trying to stop a fight...
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10:19 PM
Lexi:
As so means "I'm trying to not argue with Joey."
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10:20 PM
Julia:
No, I didn't want you guys fighting because you're my best friend and he's my friend as well.
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10:21 PM
Lexi:
No, you didn't want to argue with him. It has nothin to do with me except you didn't want to deal with standing up for me.
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10:21 PM
Julia:
Not true. You never believe me anyway
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10:22 PM
Lexi:
You seem closer to him which doesn't bother me. I'm just not hanging out with him. Unlike you, I don't like it when I'm dissed.
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10:23 PM
Julia:
Okay. No one said you had to hang out with him
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10:23 PM
Lexi:
WOOHOO! I get to go make new friends! We all know you've got "homework"
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10:24 PM
Julia:
??
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10:25 PM
Lexi:
You, Liz, and Taylor LOVE hanging out with him. So I'm not bored, I get to go make friends. You never go anywhere I do because you've got "homework"
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10:25 PM
Julia:
I really do have homework. And you have other friends.
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10:26 PM
Lexi:
Is that what you call when you just bring your book out and never open it?
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10:27 PM
Julia:
I do open it. and for the most part I usually have Social Studies.
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10:28 PM
Lexi:
I've had days where I left because you guys were being total retards, but instead of finding out if something's wrong, Joey's attention was more important.
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10:28 PM
Julia:
No, you seemed angry and you get really crabby when you're like that.
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10:30 PM
Lexi:
Yeah you're a true friend. You know why I haven't stood up for you? There's been no reason to. At least, none that I've been around.
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10:30 PM
Julia:
Because any time there's anything that you don't like, you leave.
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10:31 PM
Lexi:
No, Julia Rose, if I know someone's talking crap about my friends I do try to do something. Unlike some people.
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10:32 PM
Julia:
I really don't need verbal abuse from someone I thought was my best friend. If you have anything nice to say go ahead, but I will be gone tomorrow morning and you won't have to worry about it any ore
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10:34 PM
Lexi:
Now you know how I feel. Any real friend will get into a fist fight for you if a person says crap about you.
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10:34 PM
Julia:
Bell wouldn't but you stood up for her.
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10:34 PM
Lexi:
Bell would've.
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10:35 PM
Julia:
No. Bell would not have fought anyone.
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10:36 PM
Lexi:
Okay then, I stood up for her because she was my best friend. I thought I was your's, so I thought you COULD MANAGE to.
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10:37 PM
Julia:
I thought I was your's and I get verbally abused by you
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10:37 PM
Lexi:
After you didn't even attempt standing up for me.
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10:38 PM
Julia:
No. Since last year you've said crap about me
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10:39 PM
Lexi:
No I haven't. I thought you were my best friend.
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10:39 PM
Julia:
I thought you were mine.
Whatever, I'll sleep on the couch and you won't even have to talk to me.
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10:41 PM
Lexi:
I love how you try to make that go in a circle. "I thought you were my best friend, but now you're verbally abusing me!!" Yeeaahhhh... and you totally try to stand up for me to your boyfriend.
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10:42 PM
Julia:
He isn't my boyfriend. and I tried.
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10:42 PM
Lexi:
No, you didn
't. Then stop acting like he is
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10:43 PM
Julia:
Yes I did! I don't act like he's a anything!
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10:44 PM
Lexi:
You act like he's everything. Yeah, cause me "acting gangster" seems like standing up for me.
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10:44 PM
Julia:
He has flaws, so do you, so do I.
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10:45 PM
Lexi:
WOO LET'S GO OFF TOPIC!
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10:45 PM
Julia:
Not off topic
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10:46 PM
Lexi:
How isn't it?
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10:47 PM
Julia:
You said I act like he's everything
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10:47 PM
Lexi:
Because you do.
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10:47 PM
Julia:
I don't try
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10:47 PM
Lexi:
You do.
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10:48 PM
Julia:
I don't try to. So how is it my fault
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10:49 PM
Lexi:
I'm just pointing it out. Now you'll know not to say a word about your boyfriend.
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10:49 PM
Julia:
Okay
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10:50 PM
Lexi:
Considering he's a total jerk, but so long as he treats YOU good, he's fine.
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10:50 PM
Julia:
He isn't usually mean
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10:51 PM
Lexi:
Unless you're me, but you aren't so it shouldn't matter to you.
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10:52 PM
Julia:
Whatever
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10:53 PM
Lexi:
Well, I mean he means more so him being mean to me is over lookable.
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10:54 PM
Julia:
it is not
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10:54 PM
Lexi:
You've done it before.
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10:55 PM
Julia:
People make mistakes
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10:56 PM
Lexi:
Julia obviously justifies what Joey does very easily. Like when he BRUISED my leg off BLACK pants that can be WASHED. Yeah, you said for a while that he should say sorry and then said I should say sorry, even though I was the one with the HUGE bruise.
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10:57 PM
Julia:
You wiped mud on him so technically you both should have apologized
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10:58 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, but the way you started to say it made it seem all my fault. Always.
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10:58 PM
Julia:
That's not the way it's intended.
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10:59 PM
Lexi:
Well, when you spend part of the day trying to convince him to say sorry, and then the whole week that my wonderful bruise is healing trying to get me to say sorry...
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11:00 PM
Julia:
I spent 3 hours saying u should.
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11:00 PM
Lexi:
You spent less saying he should. Actually, I think you said he should once then went on me.
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11:01 PM
Julia:
No as I recall I spent recess and that night telling him he should and three hours saying u should.
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11:03 PM
Lexi:
If you're sick of me, why not tell me yourself?
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11:03 PM
Julia:
I'm not sick of you, I'm sick of you yelling at me.
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11:04 PM
Lexi:
Oh, maybe you should tell your boyfriend that
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11:04 PM
Julia:
Why?
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11:06 PM
Lexi:
Because says that One, you think I'm jealous of the time you talk with him and two, you two are sick of me.
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11:06 PM
Julia:
No I just don't appreciate being yelled at.
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11:07 PM
Lexi:
Maybe you should tell HIM that and not ME
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11:07 PM
Julia:
Fine.
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11:08 PM
Lexi:
Have fun with that ho,
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11:08 PM
Julia:
okay
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11:11 PM
Lexi:
Whatev, I'm goin to bed
9:34 PM
Lexi:
I've decided I'm not hanging out with you guys when Joey's around. Mainly because he obviously doesn't like the fact that I have a backbone and I'm sick of his abuse when he has no right to TOUCH me.
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9:35 PM
Julia:
Okay?
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9:37 PM
Lexi:
I'm not quite sure what you said after I left, but the whole "Cant we just drop it" thing shows that you're passive when he seems mad. Sorry if I seem ticked off about being called rude, a jerk, a "mindless worm", and arrogant.
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9:38 PM
Julia:
I stood up for you and you won't even talk to me. How does that seem fair?
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9:39 PM
Lexi:
You BAREly stood up for me.
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9:39 PM
Julia:
I still tried! I could have just blown it off altogether!!!
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9:39 PM
Lexi:
Why not!? He's obviously more important.
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9:40 PM
Julia:
That isn't true. Why would you even think that?
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9:41 PM
Lexi:
The way you talk about him. Geesh, just ask him out already, you talk about him enough
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9:41 PM
Julia:
If I honestly felt that way about him I might.
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9:42 PM
Lexi:
Then quit acting like he's oh so amazing.
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9:42 PM
Julia:
I don't try to. Sorry for thinking he has a heart and actually cares.
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9:44 PM
Lexi:
Sorry for thinking you should at least be a little upset that he disses someone who's supposily to be your best friend. Oh wait, I guess that would be him meaning there is no problem.
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9:44 PM
Julia:
What are you talking about?! I am mad about it. Sorry for not going on a complete rampage like you
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9:46 PM
Lexi:
Obviously you aren't mad. Whatever, just go back to tellin him youre deep secrets cause you feel "comfortable" with him.
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9:46 PM
Julia:
I do. You tend to get mad or judge me.
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9:48 PM
Lexi:
Then go back to talking to him. When you get down to it, he IS your best friend. Go to him and rant about just how jugdemental and all I am. I'm sure HE agrees with you.
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9:49 PM
Julia:
Whatever, Lexi. If that's what you want to believe. I thought our friendship was stronger than one guy but obviously it isn't.
Joey: Then please tell her this. If she has any problems, questions, comments, or concerns to adress them to me personally.
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9:52 PM
Lexi:
You basically blew off him calling me various things, you trust him more than me AND make it obvious, and apparently both of you think I'm so freakin jugdmental. HE can go SCREW himself. I don't have to do anything that kid says.
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9:53 PM
Julia:
"basically blew it off"!!!! I stood up for you which is better thaan you've EVER done for me.
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9:54 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, sure, whatever you say. Miss Julia and Master Joey are always right. Do not question.
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9:55 PM
Julia:
No one ever said that. You came up with that one on your own.
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9:55 PM
Lexi:
No one has to say it. Your ACTIONS say it. I'm always wrong, you two are ALWAYS right.
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9:56 PM
Julia:
No. Over half the time you are right however, you saying that i didn't stick up for you ticks me off
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9:57 PM
Lexi:
Oh? Would you like to send me where you did stick up for me? Cause what I saw, you were trying, but you were also trying to keep from making anyone mad.
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9:58 PM
Julia:
Yea well I don't honestly like confrontations I get enough of that at home.
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9:59 PM
Lexi:
And you proved my point. You didn't stick up for me. Joey's friendship is more important.
No, wait, not his friendship. Him thinking you're on his side is
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9:59 PM
Julia:
This is stupid. You're acting like you're 2.
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10:01 PM
Lexi:
And I bet you're telling him all this. Yeah, I'm acting like I'm two. What next? I'm a mindless slug who just wants attention?
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10:01 PM
Julia:
No. And I'm not telling him anything about our "conversation" if you can even call it that.
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10:03 PM
Lexi:
Aw, but it would so be you. You can trust him with EVERYTHING. Be sure to tell him that I just wanna walk up to him, slap him, and say "Rude enough for you, MUTT?"
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10:03 PM
Julia:
Whatever.
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10:05 PM
Lexi:
Oh wait, I'm dissing your super cool BFFF who thinks he's better than everyone. 'Specially a mindless worm like me who's smarter than he is.
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10:05 PM
Julia:
I don't need this.
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10:06 PM
Lexi:
Then maybe you should've actually tried standing up for you "friend"
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10:07 PM
Julia:
I did try. Obviously not well enouh for you to accept it.
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10:07 PM
Lexi:
You PASSIVELY tried. Which doesn't work.
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10:07 PM
Julia:
I can't...
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10:08 PM
Lexi:
Well then sorry I thought you cared enough to try.
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10:09 PM
Julia:
I did try. You didn't care because it wasn't what you considered edequate so i don't even want to hear it
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10:10 PM
Lexi:
Shut up and go back to you boyfriend to whine. I didn't care after the whole "Can we drop it?" You try to drop it when you care more about the person doing it.
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10:11 PM
Julia:
No. I drop it when there's no winning. Like with you.
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10:12 PM
Lexi:
Like I said, go back to your boyfriend and whine
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10:13 PM
Julia:
whatever.
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10:15 PM
Lexi:
I mean, when he's important enough to just blow it all off...
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10:16 PM
Julia:
I wasn't blowing it off....
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10:16 PM
Lexi:
You were.
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10:16 PM
Julia:
Wasn't.
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10:18 PM
Lexi:
Oh really? "She was trying to act ganster" How is that not trying to blow it off? It's like you trying to justify it or treat me like a totally retard.
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10:18 PM
Julia:
No, I was trying to stop a fight...
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10:19 PM
Lexi:
As so means "I'm trying to not argue with Joey."
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10:20 PM
Julia:
No, I didn't want you guys fighting because you're my best friend and he's my friend as well.
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10:21 PM
Lexi:
No, you didn't want to argue with him. It has nothin to do with me except you didn't want to deal with standing up for me.
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10:21 PM
Julia:
Not true. You never believe me anyway
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10:22 PM
Lexi:
You seem closer to him which doesn't bother me. I'm just not hanging out with him. Unlike you, I don't like it when I'm dissed.
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10:23 PM
Julia:
Okay. No one said you had to hang out with him
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10:23 PM
Lexi:
WOOHOO! I get to go make new friends! We all know you've got "homework"
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10:24 PM
Julia:
??
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10:25 PM
Lexi:
You, Liz, and Taylor LOVE hanging out with him. So I'm not bored, I get to go make friends. You never go anywhere I do because you've got "homework"
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10:25 PM
Julia:
I really do have homework. And you have other friends.
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10:26 PM
Lexi:
Is that what you call when you just bring your book out and never open it?
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10:27 PM
Julia:
I do open it. and for the most part I usually have Social Studies.
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10:28 PM
Lexi:
I've had days where I left because you guys were being total retards, but instead of finding out if something's wrong, Joey's attention was more important.
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10:28 PM
Julia:
No, you seemed angry and you get really crabby when you're like that.
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10:30 PM
Lexi:
Yeah you're a true friend. You know why I haven't stood up for you? There's been no reason to. At least, none that I've been around.
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10:30 PM
Julia:
Because any time there's anything that you don't like, you leave.
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10:31 PM
Lexi:
No, Julia Rose, if I know someone's talking crap about my friends I do try to do something. Unlike some people.
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10:32 PM
Julia:
I really don't need verbal abuse from someone I thought was my best friend. If you have anything nice to say go ahead, but I will be gone tomorrow morning and you won't have to worry about it any ore
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10:34 PM
Lexi:
Now you know how I feel. Any real friend will get into a fist fight for you if a person says crap about you.
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10:34 PM
Julia:
Bell wouldn't but you stood up for her.
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10:34 PM
Lexi:
Bell would've.
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10:35 PM
Julia:
No. Bell would not have fought anyone.
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10:36 PM
Lexi:
Okay then, I stood up for her because she was my best friend. I thought I was your's, so I thought you COULD MANAGE to.
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10:37 PM
Julia:
I thought I was your's and I get verbally abused by you
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10:37 PM
Lexi:
After you didn't even attempt standing up for me.
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10:38 PM
Julia:
No. Since last year you've said crap about me
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10:39 PM
Lexi:
No I haven't. I thought you were my best friend.
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10:39 PM
Julia:
I thought you were mine.
Whatever, I'll sleep on the couch and you won't even have to talk to me.
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10:41 PM
Lexi:
I love how you try to make that go in a circle. "I thought you were my best friend, but now you're verbally abusing me!!" Yeeaahhhh... and you totally try to stand up for me to your boyfriend.
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10:42 PM
Julia:
He isn't my boyfriend. and I tried.
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10:42 PM
Lexi:
No, you didn
't. Then stop acting like he is
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10:43 PM
Julia:
Yes I did! I don't act like he's a anything!
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10:44 PM
Lexi:
You act like he's everything. Yeah, cause me "acting gangster" seems like standing up for me.
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10:44 PM
Julia:
He has flaws, so do you, so do I.
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10:45 PM
Lexi:
WOO LET'S GO OFF TOPIC!
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10:45 PM
Julia:
Not off topic
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10:46 PM
Lexi:
How isn't it?
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10:47 PM
Julia:
You said I act like he's everything
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10:47 PM
Lexi:
Because you do.
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10:47 PM
Julia:
I don't try
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10:47 PM
Lexi:
You do.
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10:48 PM
Julia:
I don't try to. So how is it my fault
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10:49 PM
Lexi:
I'm just pointing it out. Now you'll know not to say a word about your boyfriend.
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10:49 PM
Julia:
Okay
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10:50 PM
Lexi:
Considering he's a total jerk, but so long as he treats YOU good, he's fine.
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10:50 PM
Julia:
He isn't usually mean
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10:51 PM
Lexi:
Unless you're me, but you aren't so it shouldn't matter to you.
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10:52 PM
Julia:
Whatever
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10:53 PM
Lexi:
Well, I mean he means more so him being mean to me is over lookable.
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10:54 PM
Julia:
it is not
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10:54 PM
Lexi:
You've done it before.
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10:55 PM
Julia:
People make mistakes
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10:56 PM
Lexi:
Julia obviously justifies what Joey does very easily. Like when he BRUISED my leg off BLACK pants that can be WASHED. Yeah, you said for a while that he should say sorry and then said I should say sorry, even though I was the one with the HUGE bruise.
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10:57 PM
Julia:
You wiped mud on him so technically you both should have apologized
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10:58 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, but the way you started to say it made it seem all my fault. Always.
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10:58 PM
Julia:
That's not the way it's intended.
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10:59 PM
Lexi:
Well, when you spend part of the day trying to convince him to say sorry, and then the whole week that my wonderful bruise is healing trying to get me to say sorry...
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11:00 PM
Julia:
I spent 3 hours saying u should.
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11:00 PM
Lexi:
You spent less saying he should. Actually, I think you said he should once then went on me.
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11:01 PM
Julia:
No as I recall I spent recess and that night telling him he should and three hours saying u should.
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11:03 PM
Lexi:
If you're sick of me, why not tell me yourself?
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11:03 PM
Julia:
I'm not sick of you, I'm sick of you yelling at me.
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11:04 PM
Lexi:
Oh, maybe you should tell your boyfriend that
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11:04 PM
Julia:
Why?
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11:06 PM
Lexi:
Because says that One, you think I'm jealous of the time you talk with him and two, you two are sick of me.
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11:06 PM
Julia:
No I just don't appreciate being yelled at.
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11:07 PM
Lexi:
Maybe you should tell HIM that and not ME
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11:07 PM
Julia:
Fine.
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11:08 PM
Lexi:
Have fun with that ho,
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11:08 PM
Julia:
okay
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11:11 PM
Lexi:
Whatev, I'm goin to bed
5/7/2010 wasn't that, like, 5 days before you asked him out? Well, here you go, that IM convo I keep refering to.
5/7/2010
10:06 PM
Lexi:
Ok, Julia sent me a message you apparently sent her saying I should go directly to you. Well, since I'm a mindless worm, what does that make you? I'm smarter than you are.
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10:07 PM
Joey:
If you have come to argue you might as well leave now I haven't the patience or tolerance for it.
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10:07 PM
Lexi:
Sorry oh mighty being that is Joey
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10:08 PM
Joey:
Why don't you just leave me alone you know I doubted myself at first but now I know you really never do care.
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10:09 PM
Lexi:
Exactally. I'm a horrible person. You should think exactlly this. All of the preppy people do.
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10:10 PM
Joey:
I could care less what the preppy people think. You don't seem to care about me and just people in general.
You apparently lack compassion
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10:12 PM
Lexi:
I don't care about people who obviously don't know me. Ooh yes, I TOTALLY lack compassion. If I see burning children, I just keep walking. You're abusive.
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10:13 PM
Joey:
Lexi I asked Julia since she seems to be the only person around that you consider to be a friend if you have ever stood up for her as a friend and she said like only a few times in 4th grade.
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10:14 PM
Joey:
And how am I abusive?
I have done some unfair things to you in the past I admit to this but I regreted it and apologized. You don't seem to care when you do something bad.
and I haven't done anything to you recently
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10:16 PM
Lexi:
Lol Appoligize? Is that you call saying you don't regret it now?
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10:17 PM
Joey:
I didn't say that I said I regreted what I did.
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10:18 PM
Lexi:
You bruised my leg, said I deserved it, and said there was no reason to say sorry.
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10:19 PM
Joey:
I didn't mean it, I felt horrible that day and if you don't believe me I could really care less. You used to smack me and knock my glasses off my face. You never really have been kind to me.
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10:20 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, sorry it was painfully obvious I was playing around AND fetched them for you.
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10:21 PM
Joey:
Lexi didn't I tell you in the start with that I didn't want to argue.
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10:21 PM
Lexi:
You also tried to make it sould like you were above me.
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10:22 PM
Joey:
I called you a mindless worm because you called me a dog and I thought you meant it in an insult way.
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10:23 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, because it's in my nature to call you random insults when we weren't joking around before.
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10:24 PM
Joey:
When do we joke around anymore. Lately you have been mad at me. Julia and I can both tell it doesn't take a rocket scientist.
And I don't mean now I mean at school.
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10:26 PM
Lexi:
Obviously you're blind. I haven't been angry at you. I've had better things to do.
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10:26 PM
Joey:
Julia told me differently.
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10:27 PM
Lexi:
Julia must be blind. Faggot shouldn't believe everything he hears.
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10:28 PM
Joey:
You know what Lexi. Just go leave me alone. Jump down a well, drown in your own vomit, slit your own throat I really don't care anymore.
I was trying to be nice about this but know I really have lost patience.
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10:29 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, nice. I'm sure someone who doesn't know kindness would believe your BS>
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10:31 PM
Joey:
You know I thought I liked you as a friend but now I see your just plain cruel.
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10:31 PM
Lexi:
Obviously.
Master Joey's word is law.
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10:32 PM
Joey:
I never said that. Now your putting words in my mouth.
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10:34 PM
Lexi:
Why do the two of you forget about actions?
You didn't HAVE To say it. You act like it.
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10:34 PM
Joey:
You are a little witch who hates to admit that she has acted wrong and this whole time you have been hiding behind Julia instead of coming strait to me with anger.
You are a coward and a ignorant fool.
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10:35 PM
Lexi:
Joey's word is law.
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10:36 PM
Joey:
Screw off you are the one acting like you are above me.
You know I really don't hate you but you seem to hate me.
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10:37 PM
Lexi:
I don't hate. You obviously don't know me, but you sure love to pretend.
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10:39 PM
Joey:
Yeah you can justify yourself as the perfect little christian girl all you want. I told you above that I didn't want to argue but you don't care you attack me anyways.
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10:40 PM
Lexi:
I'm not goin as "perfect little christian girl" MY GOSH! Why does everyone TRY to think I think I'm perfect? I KNOW I'm not.
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10:41 PM
Joey:
Your acting like it. Like your never wrong everyone else is.
Why can't you jusy admit you have done wrong. I have.
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10:42 PM
Lexi:
I know I have! YOU'RE the one acting like I think I'm perfect! I know I'm not, but like I said, you don
't know me, but love acting like you do
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10:44 PM
Joey:
I don't even act like it. You know why? Because I care nothing about you. You are foolish and un able to deal with. Whether you live or die really no longer concerns me. I just want to be left alone.
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10:44 PM
Lexi:
Then shut up.
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10:46 PM
Joey:
You keep going on. The VERY firsy thing I said was I don't want to argue. But what did you do you attacked me anyways. You care nothing for my feelings or anyone elses. So before you judge me judge yourself.
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10:47 PM
Lexi:
I'm being polite by answering. OH, wait, MASTER JOEY SAID I'M RUDE. Must be true
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10:47 PM
Joey:
How is that polite? Your mocking me.
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10:48 PM
Lexi:
I'm just being rude, like you said I am
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10:49 PM
Joey:
You are rude deny it all you want I really could care less on your opinion or thoughts.
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10:49 PM
Lexi:
Ok
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10:49 PM
Joey:
Then shut up.
Master Lexi
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10:50 PM
Lexi:
Chicks aren't masters and I'm not acting like my words make laws.
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10:51 PM
Joey:
Why did you even talk to me. You knew what the outcome would be. Do you just like to argue?
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10:52 PM
Lexi:
Apparently you said I should come to you. So I did. Idiot.
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10:53 PM
Joey:
You know what Lexi drop dead. Go kill yourself I don't care. You would be doing the world a huge favor. This whole time I have felt horrible about myself. And you don't give a shit. I could die tonight and you wouldn't care.
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10:54 PM
Lexi:
Actually, unlike you, I would care. But I would care if anyone died.
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10:55 PM
Joey:
Lexi you don't know me. You don't know one little bit about me. So don't even pretend like you do.
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10:57 PM
Lexi:
You just said you wouldn't care if I died. I'm not pretending, I'm going off what you said. Sorry, try again.
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10:58 PM
Joey:
Yes because you have given me no reason to care. You have always been rude and unkind to me. And I am sick of it and so is Julia. She also said you are jealous because she talks to me more than you.
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11:00 PM
Joey:
And I believe you are. Why? I do not know.
there is nothing to be jealous about.
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11:02 PM
Lexi:
Julia WISHES there was something to be jealous of. She can SLEEP OUTSIDE if she's sick of me.
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11:02 PM
Joey:
And do not pretend that you have not acted like you are better than me. You just declard above that you are smarter than me. Is that not acting like you are above me.
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11:03 PM
Lexi:
It's fact, Joey. Not arrogance.
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11:05 PM
Joey:
See. You are self-centered. Declaring yourself above others. Their is no different. You are arrogant. This is full proof of that. You are a self- abosorbed bitch. You said in 6th grade that you hated people who acted like they are better than people. What are you doing now you pathedic hypocrite.
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11:08 PM
Lexi:
I'm not. It's a freakin fact. I'm way out there, sure, but I'm smarter than you. It doesn't mean anything.
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11:09 PM
Joey:
Okay great lord Lexi. Then what shall be the punishment of a dunce like myself? A decapitation, walking into a pit of king cobras?
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11:09 PM
Lexi:
You've preached at me enough about my arrogance, I'm going to bed.
And I didn't say you're stupid. I'm above average.
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11:10 PM
Joey:
Good. And um Lexi I was going to apologize
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11:10 PM
Lexi:
I'm sure
10:06 PM
Lexi:
Ok, Julia sent me a message you apparently sent her saying I should go directly to you. Well, since I'm a mindless worm, what does that make you? I'm smarter than you are.
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10:07 PM
Joey:
If you have come to argue you might as well leave now I haven't the patience or tolerance for it.
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10:07 PM
Lexi:
Sorry oh mighty being that is Joey
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10:08 PM
Joey:
Why don't you just leave me alone you know I doubted myself at first but now I know you really never do care.
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10:09 PM
Lexi:
Exactally. I'm a horrible person. You should think exactlly this. All of the preppy people do.
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10:10 PM
Joey:
I could care less what the preppy people think. You don't seem to care about me and just people in general.
You apparently lack compassion
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10:12 PM
Lexi:
I don't care about people who obviously don't know me. Ooh yes, I TOTALLY lack compassion. If I see burning children, I just keep walking. You're abusive.
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10:13 PM
Joey:
Lexi I asked Julia since she seems to be the only person around that you consider to be a friend if you have ever stood up for her as a friend and she said like only a few times in 4th grade.
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10:14 PM
Joey:
And how am I abusive?
I have done some unfair things to you in the past I admit to this but I regreted it and apologized. You don't seem to care when you do something bad.
and I haven't done anything to you recently
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10:16 PM
Lexi:
Lol Appoligize? Is that you call saying you don't regret it now?
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10:17 PM
Joey:
I didn't say that I said I regreted what I did.
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10:18 PM
Lexi:
You bruised my leg, said I deserved it, and said there was no reason to say sorry.
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10:19 PM
Joey:
I didn't mean it, I felt horrible that day and if you don't believe me I could really care less. You used to smack me and knock my glasses off my face. You never really have been kind to me.
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10:20 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, sorry it was painfully obvious I was playing around AND fetched them for you.
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10:21 PM
Joey:
Lexi didn't I tell you in the start with that I didn't want to argue.
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10:21 PM
Lexi:
You also tried to make it sould like you were above me.
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10:22 PM
Joey:
I called you a mindless worm because you called me a dog and I thought you meant it in an insult way.
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10:23 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, because it's in my nature to call you random insults when we weren't joking around before.
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10:24 PM
Joey:
When do we joke around anymore. Lately you have been mad at me. Julia and I can both tell it doesn't take a rocket scientist.
And I don't mean now I mean at school.
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10:26 PM
Lexi:
Obviously you're blind. I haven't been angry at you. I've had better things to do.
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10:26 PM
Joey:
Julia told me differently.
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10:27 PM
Lexi:
Julia must be blind. Faggot shouldn't believe everything he hears.
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10:28 PM
Joey:
You know what Lexi. Just go leave me alone. Jump down a well, drown in your own vomit, slit your own throat I really don't care anymore.
I was trying to be nice about this but know I really have lost patience.
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10:29 PM
Lexi:
Yeah, nice. I'm sure someone who doesn't know kindness would believe your BS>
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10:31 PM
Joey:
You know I thought I liked you as a friend but now I see your just plain cruel.
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10:31 PM
Lexi:
Obviously.
Master Joey's word is law.
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10:32 PM
Joey:
I never said that. Now your putting words in my mouth.
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10:34 PM
Lexi:
Why do the two of you forget about actions?
You didn't HAVE To say it. You act like it.
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10:34 PM
Joey:
You are a little witch who hates to admit that she has acted wrong and this whole time you have been hiding behind Julia instead of coming strait to me with anger.
You are a coward and a ignorant fool.
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10:35 PM
Lexi:
Joey's word is law.
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10:36 PM
Joey:
Screw off you are the one acting like you are above me.
You know I really don't hate you but you seem to hate me.
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10:37 PM
Lexi:
I don't hate. You obviously don't know me, but you sure love to pretend.
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10:39 PM
Joey:
Yeah you can justify yourself as the perfect little christian girl all you want. I told you above that I didn't want to argue but you don't care you attack me anyways.
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10:40 PM
Lexi:
I'm not goin as "perfect little christian girl" MY GOSH! Why does everyone TRY to think I think I'm perfect? I KNOW I'm not.
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10:41 PM
Joey:
Your acting like it. Like your never wrong everyone else is.
Why can't you jusy admit you have done wrong. I have.
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10:42 PM
Lexi:
I know I have! YOU'RE the one acting like I think I'm perfect! I know I'm not, but like I said, you don
't know me, but love acting like you do
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10:44 PM
Joey:
I don't even act like it. You know why? Because I care nothing about you. You are foolish and un able to deal with. Whether you live or die really no longer concerns me. I just want to be left alone.
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10:44 PM
Lexi:
Then shut up.
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10:46 PM
Joey:
You keep going on. The VERY firsy thing I said was I don't want to argue. But what did you do you attacked me anyways. You care nothing for my feelings or anyone elses. So before you judge me judge yourself.
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10:47 PM
Lexi:
I'm being polite by answering. OH, wait, MASTER JOEY SAID I'M RUDE. Must be true
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10:47 PM
Joey:
How is that polite? Your mocking me.
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10:48 PM
Lexi:
I'm just being rude, like you said I am
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10:49 PM
Joey:
You are rude deny it all you want I really could care less on your opinion or thoughts.
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10:49 PM
Lexi:
Ok
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10:49 PM
Joey:
Then shut up.
Master Lexi
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10:50 PM
Lexi:
Chicks aren't masters and I'm not acting like my words make laws.
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10:51 PM
Joey:
Why did you even talk to me. You knew what the outcome would be. Do you just like to argue?
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10:52 PM
Lexi:
Apparently you said I should come to you. So I did. Idiot.
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10:53 PM
Joey:
You know what Lexi drop dead. Go kill yourself I don't care. You would be doing the world a huge favor. This whole time I have felt horrible about myself. And you don't give a shit. I could die tonight and you wouldn't care.
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10:54 PM
Lexi:
Actually, unlike you, I would care. But I would care if anyone died.
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10:55 PM
Joey:
Lexi you don't know me. You don't know one little bit about me. So don't even pretend like you do.
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10:57 PM
Lexi:
You just said you wouldn't care if I died. I'm not pretending, I'm going off what you said. Sorry, try again.
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10:58 PM
Joey:
Yes because you have given me no reason to care. You have always been rude and unkind to me. And I am sick of it and so is Julia. She also said you are jealous because she talks to me more than you.
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11:00 PM
Joey:
And I believe you are. Why? I do not know.
there is nothing to be jealous about.
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11:02 PM
Lexi:
Julia WISHES there was something to be jealous of. She can SLEEP OUTSIDE if she's sick of me.
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11:02 PM
Joey:
And do not pretend that you have not acted like you are better than me. You just declard above that you are smarter than me. Is that not acting like you are above me.
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11:03 PM
Lexi:
It's fact, Joey. Not arrogance.
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11:05 PM
Joey:
See. You are self-centered. Declaring yourself above others. Their is no different. You are arrogant. This is full proof of that. You are a self- abosorbed bitch. You said in 6th grade that you hated people who acted like they are better than people. What are you doing now you pathedic hypocrite.
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11:08 PM
Lexi:
I'm not. It's a freakin fact. I'm way out there, sure, but I'm smarter than you. It doesn't mean anything.
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11:09 PM
Joey:
Okay great lord Lexi. Then what shall be the punishment of a dunce like myself? A decapitation, walking into a pit of king cobras?
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11:09 PM
Lexi:
You've preached at me enough about my arrogance, I'm going to bed.
And I didn't say you're stupid. I'm above average.
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11:10 PM
Joey:
Good. And um Lexi I was going to apologize
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11:10 PM
Lexi:
I'm sure
Sunday, October 3, 2010
It's funny,
when you finally learn what everyone else knew. Only, it isn't really funny except you have to laugh or you might just crumble before everyone and that would be bad. They may have to tell your parents and then even they would know you're freakin psychotic.
...Only I'm sick of laughing about it. I'm mad, and someone should have to pay. It's only freaking fair. I'm sick of pretending that most things are fine. Sure, it could be worse, sure I could be in a worse situation, but that doesn't change the fact that I want to rip someone eyes out of their head, run around cussing everyone who ever did me any wrong out, scream until my voice is raw, and then smirk to myself when those people ask for favors. I want to slam my fists into the their faces and then scream at them everything they said that ever hurt me. Maybe then they would see that there is reason behind these scars. Maybe then they'd realize I'm freaking sick of this crap and just need a moment to myself so I don't freaking tear them apart.
But I wouldn't ever be able to remember everything they said to me, all the words that ate at me, had me slinking away to my room, the glass or blade or other sharp edge, wouldn't be able to remember not make up things I want to yell at them. Who gives a crap if they put me into some asylum?! It's freaking away from this!!
Yet, I'm still a caged bird, unable to let this anger, saddness, hate run free. I'm still laughing, like it's still fine.
...Only I'm sick of laughing about it. I'm mad, and someone should have to pay. It's only freaking fair. I'm sick of pretending that most things are fine. Sure, it could be worse, sure I could be in a worse situation, but that doesn't change the fact that I want to rip someone eyes out of their head, run around cussing everyone who ever did me any wrong out, scream until my voice is raw, and then smirk to myself when those people ask for favors. I want to slam my fists into the their faces and then scream at them everything they said that ever hurt me. Maybe then they would see that there is reason behind these scars. Maybe then they'd realize I'm freaking sick of this crap and just need a moment to myself so I don't freaking tear them apart.
But I wouldn't ever be able to remember everything they said to me, all the words that ate at me, had me slinking away to my room, the glass or blade or other sharp edge, wouldn't be able to remember not make up things I want to yell at them. Who gives a crap if they put me into some asylum?! It's freaking away from this!!
Yet, I'm still a caged bird, unable to let this anger, saddness, hate run free. I'm still laughing, like it's still fine.
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Got told this is full of selfpity.
Honestly, it's not like there's any empathy or sympathy for me. So I do it myself. Only ones who should get to complain are the ones who haven't felt self-pity ever.
Not going to school tomorrow. Hoping everyone will calm down and be happy without me there to mess it up. Have fun whores, backstabbers, and jerks! Because even if you don't, I will and we all know I can't enjoy life more than you!
Not going to school tomorrow. Hoping everyone will calm down and be happy without me there to mess it up. Have fun whores, backstabbers, and jerks! Because even if you don't, I will and we all know I can't enjoy life more than you!
I got too optimistic.
I thought today was gonna be ok. Now, I feel spent. Someone shoot me. I'm a waste of space who let itself get hurt. I don't want to go to school, just need to get rid of this feeling of worthlessness. Why even post on here, she isn't gonna read it. She says she doesn't know what she would do without him, so I'm disposeable. Hurry, numb before I make an attempt on this freaking life. I'm sick of this Hell.
Friday, October 1, 2010
Post 2 of 2.
I don't want to do anything. No one's got time for me, she won't tell me what's up. But I guess I can't tell her crap now. It all goes to him anyways, instead of her telling me she has a problem with it herself.
Whatever, I'm thinking of painting my canvas. Something creative to clear me.
I called, yelled, called again to say sorry, then called again to ask what the heck, and got told she didn't have time for that. Phone's dead, and I feel like dying. Don't wanna do nothing now. I wanna skip school next week, spend it in my room. No one will miss me. I'm just a nothing. They'll go on as though life is all ine and perfect. Which is good, for them. I don't have anyone to talk to, not seriously, not anymore.
I think I'll just put the phone on the charger and lock myself in my room. I'm just so sick of everything.
Whatever, I'm thinking of painting my canvas. Something creative to clear me.
I called, yelled, called again to say sorry, then called again to ask what the heck, and got told she didn't have time for that. Phone's dead, and I feel like dying. Don't wanna do nothing now. I wanna skip school next week, spend it in my room. No one will miss me. I'm just a nothing. They'll go on as though life is all ine and perfect. Which is good, for them. I don't have anyone to talk to, not seriously, not anymore.
I think I'll just put the phone on the charger and lock myself in my room. I'm just so sick of everything.
Post 1 of 2
Enough
Between You and Joseph Rudis
Joseph Rudis October 1 at 9:24am Report
I am really quite sick of your disturbing obsession with Julia. I know everything you say to her. I know that you are angry at her because she will not get rid of me. So you are trying to turn her against me. Is this some sort of game to you? What is your problem. Julia tells me that if she hugs anyone else before she hugs you especially when it comes to me you get really pissed at her.Why? What the hell is wrong with her hugging other people before she hugs you? I am in a relationship with her and that doesn't even bother me the least bit. And I saw the way you looked at me when I went and stood next to Julia and you said " I have to go to tutoring" and rudely walked away. And Julia now tells me that it "physically hurts" you that I am with her. Why? If you are cutting yourself then the only one to blame is you. I did nothing to you I merely stripped away your collapsing illusion. You were afraid. You were afraid that I or anyone else would see through your false appearense and see what you truely are. A sad, psychoctic, obsessive, dangerous girl. And you are afraid someone like me will "steal" Julia away. So the way I see it is you are either a lesbian or you have completely lost your mind. You are an anchor and will drag Julia down. You spread your negativity to others. And why? Because you want someone to either suffer the same fate as you or someone to try and guilt trip. You deserve no sympathy. You are a dangerous human being and your worst enemy is yourself. You need some serious mental help my dear =) .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 5:25am Obviously, she doesn't tell you all of it. And, even though I don't really like you, I didn't mean to give you a dirty look. If you asked me to tell you how I felt then (which I know you didn't), I wouldn't be able to give a better answer than "broken and like she would ignore me."
You don't think it, but I do have to fight for her attention when you're around and I just frickin hate it because everyone wants me to be happy for you guys and act like I feel ok. I don't spread my negativity, at least not as much as you think I do.
My cutting is my choice, I know. I'm fine with it, and really wouldn't wish it on anyone. Really, I'm not at all dangerous. Maybe to myself, but not to anyone else.
I get that I'm probably a little crazy. I've got a major fear of abandonment and I cut. Yeah, I gets it I'm crazy. :P I don't want your sympathy. If I did, I would be flashing the cuts and scars, not hiding them. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 5:28am Report
So why is it that you don't like me? Because I got the truth out of you of who you really are? Or is it because I am with Julia? .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 5:34am Idk, seeing your face just makes me wanna punch something. And then she freaking expects me to try and hang out with you guys when I'm almost certain she'll totally ignore me. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 5:37am Report
So basically you dislike me for no reason...really mature. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 5:44am Ohkay, let me think of a reason...you're arrogant, annoying, accusing, probably one of the most ignorant people I know,(the ones after this are actual reasons) you don't think of how your actions will bother others, and you just came at me without knowing the whole story.
Honestly, you both act like being mean to me will eventually make me come around. It's freaking stupid. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 5:53am Report
No acutally I don't really expect you to come around. Actually I told Julia that if you were bothering her enough that shes hould just leave you behind completely. I wouldn't have actually told her that if it weren't for the fact that she told me that you want her to get rid of me. That and your lesbian-like obsession over her is really scaring her. And "annoying". I fail to see how. The only time I ever even say anything to you is if you are starting your stupid drama. And that is when I confront you. And rightfully so. So I guess anyone that you piss off through out your life must be annoying because they may confront you. I only accuse when I know the facts or if I was mislead. And Julia has told me all I needed to know about all the ignorant drama you start every day of every week. And quite frankly I don't care how my actions may bother you or anyone else. I do not live to please you nor any other person I do not care for. And Ignorant? I call it out. Apparently I smart enough to dig out the truth from your pathedic false image. You are just as ignorant as I. And You are quite insane. If you are in love with Julia just admit it already. And what bugs me about you...you act as if everything is fine and then randomly some week you start this whole drama thing all over again. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 5:59am I don't care that you guys are dating. I care that it made her change completely. I care that I'm expected to be perfectly fine and not at all upset. Honestly, if you weren't such a brat at times like this and actually tried to get info about the actual situation, I would try not to feel like I'm gonna hurl when I'm around you two and only walk off when I actually am being ignored. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:03am Report
The only thing making her mad and making her ignore you is...you. She ignores her because you turn crazy on her. I haven't every told her to do anything to you. I told her when we were still friends that I will not persuade her to do something she doesn,t want to do. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:05am Report
And how has she changes for the worst? Is the fact that she is happy bother you? Or do you expect her to be a nun her entire life. And stop calling me a brat like you are my parent or something. I am simply confronting you because this whole thing is really starting to piss me off. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:11am No, she ignores me even when she isn't mad at me. The fact that she's happy doesn't bother me. The fact that she ignores me does! But like always you only see your point of view. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:12am Report
You don't know what I see. Don't be a condescending bitch. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:16am Obviously I've done something completely unforgivable by trying to firgure out what's up, and if it weren't you, I may say sorry. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:16am Report
That doesn't explain why you are so obsessive over her. She even told me about you asking how she would react if you told her that you truely love her. What is that about? .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:19am I was being hypothetical or wondering or whatever. But I have learned never to ask her anything. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:20am Report
You haven't answered my question. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:25am Report
Well since you will not answer you obviously are afraid to answer me or you would have no problem answering my question. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:32am I did. Obviously you're referring to a question you didn't ask or missesd the answer.
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Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:35am Report
Why would you ask such an odd and somewhay creepy question? And that wasn't the only thing she had told me. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:38am Blah, blah, blah, she told you everything, blah, blah, blah. I didn't think she would mind and I was wondering. She should've told me herself if she did
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Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:39am Report
She didn't tell me everything. None of you ever have told me the full story on anything. She also told me you wouldn't mind hanging out with us if she held you hand. ????????? .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:42am Physical anchor to keep me from running away and I meant once, but it doesn't matter, she doesn't have time for me.
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:46am Report
And she never will. As long as you keep up your phsyco behavior she will always cast you out. She may even try and sort things out with you now. But you always take the wrong approach and yell at her. And don't say you don't because she just told me you called her freaking out. If you are going to be a bitch to her just leave her the hell alone. And what would you need to run away from? We are talking about going over and talking to people not petting a lion. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:51am I called and yelled, I didn't mean to, I just didn't want to seem like an idiot for crying on the phone and I called back and said sorry. Despite what you both think I dont mean to be a bad person. You try being completely alone or even told you're horrible when all you want to do is curl up and cry.
And trust me, it doesn't seem like that to you, but it does to me
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Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:53am Report
How are you alone? Who calls you horrible? You tell me all these things yet you don't give me any examples. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:56am You have practically been doing it this whole time. Julia treats me wanting to know what's going on as a horrid crime even if I'm not yelling. And how am I not alone? I don't have anyone close to me that I can tell anything!
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:59am Report
I never once called you horrible nor thought it. I think you are acting over-dramatic and crazy. You don't ever no whats going on? Ha thats a laugh. And you do have your family. Your first friends. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:01am I don't. and no, I can't talk to them about anything. Saying I'm obsessive, phyco, and dangerous certainly sounds like horrible.
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 7:06am Report
No calling you horrible would mean that I would hate you. And I do not hate you. And why can't you talk with your family? .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:09am You don't have to hate someone to think they're horrible. Haha, how could I talk to them?
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 7:10am Report
Just talk. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:13am Oh yeah, "hey, mom, quit working on your degree, we need to talk about me cutting" would just go over grandly.
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 7:14am Report
I am sure your parents would find some time to talk about your health. And yes cutting is a health problem. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:16am Yeah right after they threw me into the asylum and ignored me for years.
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 7:18am Report
Well being as obsessive as you are you obviously have some sort of mental issue. Though I do not know your parents I don't think they think of you as so worthless as to throw you in an asylum and forget about you. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:21am Yeah, I never had attention. Ever since I was 18 months old and I had someone I never thought would leave and now I'm freaking alone!
Joseph Rudis October 3 at 7:18pm Report
Life will not always be a pleasent trip. You loose people. It just happens. And you haven't even lost Julia...yet. And you do have other friends you know. Like Cheyenne and Lizz. And I am qute sure your parents aren't emotionless pigs towards you. I think you are just way to dramatic. In fact I know you are.
Lexi Dixon October 3 at 8:24pm Then you'll be able to deal with me saying this perfectly, shut up, I'm freaking sick of hearing your bull crap. If Julia had something to say to me, she should've done it herself, but thanks for waking me up to the fact that I can't trust my best friend. ^^
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 5:33pm Report
= ) .
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 5:36pm Report
With that attitude she won't be your friend for much longer. And you start all the drama. I was simply confronting you. And I have all the reason to. And what was this " then don't, the worst that can happen is that I go and kill myself". Wow really mature. You're pathedic. Nice talking to ya! =) .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 7:39pm Seriously, you act like you're all big and bold and "confronting me". You wanna know what you're doing? Sitting behind a computer screen because you're too scared to actually say any of this to my face. =) I don't see what's wrong with my attitude. And actually our friendship is great, so I guess you should quit speaking for her, huh?
(holy crap, doesn't this brat have a life outside of this?)
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:15pm Report
She told me herself that she is sick of your bullcrap. Oh yes really great friendship. And I would confront you to your face but it really isn't worth getting in trouble with the principal over. I would perfer a nice clean school record. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:21pm How bout you tell her to tell me herself? Because, honestly, I've found that you're full of crap.
=3 Oh yes, because you can so get a bad record by telling someone what you think about them to their face. Freakin pansy. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:22pm The real question is...if it isn't worth a bad school record, why drag it out on facebook? Nothing better to do with your life?
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:26pm Report
No it is an issue to be acknowledged but why put myself in a situation that gets me in trouble? That would be rather foolish of me. Unless the severity of this situation gets even worse then I will confront you personally. Knowing the fact that you may or may not run to the adults for some sense of cowardice protection. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:27pm Not when I consider this harassment.
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:28pm Report
And constantly yelling at Julia is not harassment? .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:29pm I don't constantly yell at her. And honestly,SHE should be talking to me about this. Not you.
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:31pm Report
She doesn't know how to tell you what she wants to tell you that is why I have been trying to help. Believe me or not that is obviously your choice. But the text messages don't lie. .
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:31pm Report
Help Julia that is. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:35pm Honestly, she shouldn't have even been telling you crap.
But, right now, as far as I'm concerned, both of you can take a long walk off a cliff.
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:43pm Report
A contradiction of your own beliefs. All the more amusing. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:49pm You know, I'm a pretty nice person. You know what else? I'm ending this conversationg.
Between You and Joseph Rudis
Joseph Rudis October 1 at 9:24am Report
I am really quite sick of your disturbing obsession with Julia. I know everything you say to her. I know that you are angry at her because she will not get rid of me. So you are trying to turn her against me. Is this some sort of game to you? What is your problem. Julia tells me that if she hugs anyone else before she hugs you especially when it comes to me you get really pissed at her.Why? What the hell is wrong with her hugging other people before she hugs you? I am in a relationship with her and that doesn't even bother me the least bit. And I saw the way you looked at me when I went and stood next to Julia and you said " I have to go to tutoring" and rudely walked away. And Julia now tells me that it "physically hurts" you that I am with her. Why? If you are cutting yourself then the only one to blame is you. I did nothing to you I merely stripped away your collapsing illusion. You were afraid. You were afraid that I or anyone else would see through your false appearense and see what you truely are. A sad, psychoctic, obsessive, dangerous girl. And you are afraid someone like me will "steal" Julia away. So the way I see it is you are either a lesbian or you have completely lost your mind. You are an anchor and will drag Julia down. You spread your negativity to others. And why? Because you want someone to either suffer the same fate as you or someone to try and guilt trip. You deserve no sympathy. You are a dangerous human being and your worst enemy is yourself. You need some serious mental help my dear =) .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 5:25am Obviously, she doesn't tell you all of it. And, even though I don't really like you, I didn't mean to give you a dirty look. If you asked me to tell you how I felt then (which I know you didn't), I wouldn't be able to give a better answer than "broken and like she would ignore me."
You don't think it, but I do have to fight for her attention when you're around and I just frickin hate it because everyone wants me to be happy for you guys and act like I feel ok. I don't spread my negativity, at least not as much as you think I do.
My cutting is my choice, I know. I'm fine with it, and really wouldn't wish it on anyone. Really, I'm not at all dangerous. Maybe to myself, but not to anyone else.
I get that I'm probably a little crazy. I've got a major fear of abandonment and I cut. Yeah, I gets it I'm crazy. :P I don't want your sympathy. If I did, I would be flashing the cuts and scars, not hiding them. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 5:28am Report
So why is it that you don't like me? Because I got the truth out of you of who you really are? Or is it because I am with Julia? .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 5:34am Idk, seeing your face just makes me wanna punch something. And then she freaking expects me to try and hang out with you guys when I'm almost certain she'll totally ignore me. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 5:37am Report
So basically you dislike me for no reason...really mature. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 5:44am Ohkay, let me think of a reason...you're arrogant, annoying, accusing, probably one of the most ignorant people I know,(the ones after this are actual reasons) you don't think of how your actions will bother others, and you just came at me without knowing the whole story.
Honestly, you both act like being mean to me will eventually make me come around. It's freaking stupid. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 5:53am Report
No acutally I don't really expect you to come around. Actually I told Julia that if you were bothering her enough that shes hould just leave you behind completely. I wouldn't have actually told her that if it weren't for the fact that she told me that you want her to get rid of me. That and your lesbian-like obsession over her is really scaring her. And "annoying". I fail to see how. The only time I ever even say anything to you is if you are starting your stupid drama. And that is when I confront you. And rightfully so. So I guess anyone that you piss off through out your life must be annoying because they may confront you. I only accuse when I know the facts or if I was mislead. And Julia has told me all I needed to know about all the ignorant drama you start every day of every week. And quite frankly I don't care how my actions may bother you or anyone else. I do not live to please you nor any other person I do not care for. And Ignorant? I call it out. Apparently I smart enough to dig out the truth from your pathedic false image. You are just as ignorant as I. And You are quite insane. If you are in love with Julia just admit it already. And what bugs me about you...you act as if everything is fine and then randomly some week you start this whole drama thing all over again. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 5:59am I don't care that you guys are dating. I care that it made her change completely. I care that I'm expected to be perfectly fine and not at all upset. Honestly, if you weren't such a brat at times like this and actually tried to get info about the actual situation, I would try not to feel like I'm gonna hurl when I'm around you two and only walk off when I actually am being ignored. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:03am Report
The only thing making her mad and making her ignore you is...you. She ignores her because you turn crazy on her. I haven't every told her to do anything to you. I told her when we were still friends that I will not persuade her to do something she doesn,t want to do. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:05am Report
And how has she changes for the worst? Is the fact that she is happy bother you? Or do you expect her to be a nun her entire life. And stop calling me a brat like you are my parent or something. I am simply confronting you because this whole thing is really starting to piss me off. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:11am No, she ignores me even when she isn't mad at me. The fact that she's happy doesn't bother me. The fact that she ignores me does! But like always you only see your point of view. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:12am Report
You don't know what I see. Don't be a condescending bitch. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:16am Obviously I've done something completely unforgivable by trying to firgure out what's up, and if it weren't you, I may say sorry. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:16am Report
That doesn't explain why you are so obsessive over her. She even told me about you asking how she would react if you told her that you truely love her. What is that about? .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:19am I was being hypothetical or wondering or whatever. But I have learned never to ask her anything. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:20am Report
You haven't answered my question. .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:25am Report
Well since you will not answer you obviously are afraid to answer me or you would have no problem answering my question. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:32am I did. Obviously you're referring to a question you didn't ask or missesd the answer.
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:35am Report
Why would you ask such an odd and somewhay creepy question? And that wasn't the only thing she had told me. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:38am Blah, blah, blah, she told you everything, blah, blah, blah. I didn't think she would mind and I was wondering. She should've told me herself if she did
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:39am Report
She didn't tell me everything. None of you ever have told me the full story on anything. She also told me you wouldn't mind hanging out with us if she held you hand. ????????? .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:42am Physical anchor to keep me from running away and I meant once, but it doesn't matter, she doesn't have time for me.
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:46am Report
And she never will. As long as you keep up your phsyco behavior she will always cast you out. She may even try and sort things out with you now. But you always take the wrong approach and yell at her. And don't say you don't because she just told me you called her freaking out. If you are going to be a bitch to her just leave her the hell alone. And what would you need to run away from? We are talking about going over and talking to people not petting a lion. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:51am I called and yelled, I didn't mean to, I just didn't want to seem like an idiot for crying on the phone and I called back and said sorry. Despite what you both think I dont mean to be a bad person. You try being completely alone or even told you're horrible when all you want to do is curl up and cry.
And trust me, it doesn't seem like that to you, but it does to me
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Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:53am Report
How are you alone? Who calls you horrible? You tell me all these things yet you don't give me any examples. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 6:56am You have practically been doing it this whole time. Julia treats me wanting to know what's going on as a horrid crime even if I'm not yelling. And how am I not alone? I don't have anyone close to me that I can tell anything!
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 6:59am Report
I never once called you horrible nor thought it. I think you are acting over-dramatic and crazy. You don't ever no whats going on? Ha thats a laugh. And you do have your family. Your first friends. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:01am I don't. and no, I can't talk to them about anything. Saying I'm obsessive, phyco, and dangerous certainly sounds like horrible.
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 7:06am Report
No calling you horrible would mean that I would hate you. And I do not hate you. And why can't you talk with your family? .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:09am You don't have to hate someone to think they're horrible. Haha, how could I talk to them?
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 7:10am Report
Just talk. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:13am Oh yeah, "hey, mom, quit working on your degree, we need to talk about me cutting" would just go over grandly.
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 7:14am Report
I am sure your parents would find some time to talk about your health. And yes cutting is a health problem. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:16am Yeah right after they threw me into the asylum and ignored me for years.
Sent via Facebook Mobile .
Joseph Rudis October 2 at 7:18am Report
Well being as obsessive as you are you obviously have some sort of mental issue. Though I do not know your parents I don't think they think of you as so worthless as to throw you in an asylum and forget about you. .
Lexi Dixon October 2 at 7:21am Yeah, I never had attention. Ever since I was 18 months old and I had someone I never thought would leave and now I'm freaking alone!
Joseph Rudis October 3 at 7:18pm Report
Life will not always be a pleasent trip. You loose people. It just happens. And you haven't even lost Julia...yet. And you do have other friends you know. Like Cheyenne and Lizz. And I am qute sure your parents aren't emotionless pigs towards you. I think you are just way to dramatic. In fact I know you are.
Lexi Dixon October 3 at 8:24pm Then you'll be able to deal with me saying this perfectly, shut up, I'm freaking sick of hearing your bull crap. If Julia had something to say to me, she should've done it herself, but thanks for waking me up to the fact that I can't trust my best friend. ^^
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 5:33pm Report
= ) .
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 5:36pm Report
With that attitude she won't be your friend for much longer. And you start all the drama. I was simply confronting you. And I have all the reason to. And what was this " then don't, the worst that can happen is that I go and kill myself". Wow really mature. You're pathedic. Nice talking to ya! =) .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 7:39pm Seriously, you act like you're all big and bold and "confronting me". You wanna know what you're doing? Sitting behind a computer screen because you're too scared to actually say any of this to my face. =) I don't see what's wrong with my attitude. And actually our friendship is great, so I guess you should quit speaking for her, huh?
(holy crap, doesn't this brat have a life outside of this?)
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:15pm Report
She told me herself that she is sick of your bullcrap. Oh yes really great friendship. And I would confront you to your face but it really isn't worth getting in trouble with the principal over. I would perfer a nice clean school record. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:21pm How bout you tell her to tell me herself? Because, honestly, I've found that you're full of crap.
=3 Oh yes, because you can so get a bad record by telling someone what you think about them to their face. Freakin pansy. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:22pm The real question is...if it isn't worth a bad school record, why drag it out on facebook? Nothing better to do with your life?
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:26pm Report
No it is an issue to be acknowledged but why put myself in a situation that gets me in trouble? That would be rather foolish of me. Unless the severity of this situation gets even worse then I will confront you personally. Knowing the fact that you may or may not run to the adults for some sense of cowardice protection. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:27pm Not when I consider this harassment.
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:28pm Report
And constantly yelling at Julia is not harassment? .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:29pm I don't constantly yell at her. And honestly,SHE should be talking to me about this. Not you.
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:31pm Report
She doesn't know how to tell you what she wants to tell you that is why I have been trying to help. Believe me or not that is obviously your choice. But the text messages don't lie. .
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:31pm Report
Help Julia that is. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:35pm Honestly, she shouldn't have even been telling you crap.
But, right now, as far as I'm concerned, both of you can take a long walk off a cliff.
Joseph Rudis October 4 at 9:43pm Report
A contradiction of your own beliefs. All the more amusing. .
Lexi Dixon October 4 at 9:49pm You know, I'm a pretty nice person. You know what else? I'm ending this conversationg.
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